It has been my intent to share the same orbit with my close friends but not be drawn into an orbit around them. I think I now recognize what it feels like to get wobbly in my own orbit and begin to yield to the gravitational pull from someone else. I had the concept; now I know what it feels like. Now I think I am recovering my own stability in my own orbit. Letting go helps.
I am amazed how the morning brings me clarity. Sometimes, like today, the clarity comes on a silver platter. I think my heart is like an puppy, overcome with enthusiasm. I have learned very well how to open my heart up, something I seem to do with increasing ease. Sometimes my enthusiastic heart runs around, jumps up on people. Probably makes them uneasy.
Staying is as hard for me as it is for a puppy. Staying in the present is a skill I have begun to learn, but the puppy sometimes gets out.
My ability to keep a distance in a relationship, to keep to my own orbit, to restrict my engagement is still being formed. There is a pattern. I engage, I stumble, I assess, I adjust. Fortunately there are mornings, like today, when clarity prevails. Now to get thru the day with that focus.