Mindfulness and Intimacy

This is an outline of a talk given on September 15, 2021

Mindfulness and Intimacy  9/15/2021

Here we are, obviously connected by words and by images on our screens

  • Also, less obviously,  but we know it, we are joined together through infinite connections that extend beyond our capacity to conceive.   
  • We are intimate and also mindfully aware of this.

Beginning: I invite you to close your eyes and relax

  • Allow yourself to feel connected to your chair, and know that you are one with your chair.
  • Allow yourself to feel connected to all of us in this meeting, and know that you are one with us.
  • Allow yourself to feel connected to all the world around you, and know that you are one with all that is.
  • Open your eyes.

That is an experience of intimacy and what it is like to be mindful of it

  • It is what we cultivate and develop in our practice.
  • We are all familiar with intimacy and mindfulness.
  • We all have some sense of how to be mindful,  how to be focused on what is here in the present moment.
  • We also have some sense of how this intimacy and mindfulness can produce a joyful life, a compassionate engagement with what is right here and now.
  • I confess, my major ambition is to experience intimacy with the world and be aware of it.
  • I’m trying to figure it out; I don’t have answers, but I do have some observations.
  • I am inviting you to think about intimacy and mindfulness this evening.
  • Perhaps deepen our capacity to experience this intimacy and mindfulness, something we cultivate through practice.

I am aware that Intimacy is a delicate word, a delicate topic, because of common speech, our minds tend to go to intimacy of sex.

  • When I met a close friend of mine several years ago, she said “no intimacy.”
  • I knew that, in common speech, meant “no sex.”  
  • And so it has been, though I think we have a lot of intimacy in our relationship.
  • I think of intimacy in a much broader fashion. 

Offer a list of seven observations, any one of which could invite reflection and discussion.

My first observation about intimacy is that intimacy is a given.

  • All our relationships have intimacy, even if we don’t experience it.   
  • We are intimate by nature; we are naturally connected to all things; will we experience it????
  • Intimacy is a way to go toward what is deepest and most powerful about being human.  
  • The reality of natural intimacy is a basis of our practice.  
  • Thay teaches us about interbeing;  we are naturally that connected, with one another, intimate with everything.   
  • We miss out; we aren’t often experiencing that intimacy or being mindful of it.   
  • Learning to be open to that experience of intimacy is part of our practice.
  • First observation:  I am already intimate with the world;  I want to experience that intimacy and know it

Second observation:  experience vs. know, intimacy as experienced vs. mindfulness

  • Think of being inside watching it rain outside; watch the raindrops run down the window pane; that is mindfulness of the rain.
  • Now think of running outside into the rain and feel the rain on our face and body, soaking your clothes; that is experiencing intimacy with the rain  
  • For me, intimacy and mindfulness are two sides of the same coin.
  • One depends on the other; they grow together as I practice.  They are the twins of my practice

Third observation:  intimacy relies on intimacy with self; based on sensory awareness

  • What I observe with my senses is foundational for experiencing intimacy
  • I include real and imagined sensation.
  • This is counter-cultural:   our culture seems either caught up in the senses, or avoiding sensory experience.
  • Our practice recognizes that the senses invite mindfulness;  it’s front and center:  hugging meditation, walking meditation.

Fourth observation: Nature has a great role in the experience of intimacy and becoming mindful.

  • A group I sometimes sit with: Awake In the Wild
  • Nature not only calls me to my senses but also invites me beyond to a deep experience of intimacy.
  • Nature invites me to step beyond my habitual, cultural views.

Fifth observation:  Experiencing intimacy softens and requires a softening of my sense of “mine”.

  • Intimacy is about experiencing things as they are and not something to be possessed.
  • I think for me this especially applies to my experience of intimacy with others; trying to possess someone, even a partner, interferes with intimacy.   

Sixth observation:  Experiencing intimacy is counter cultural, I must go against my culture if I am to experience intimacy with others, with the world.

  • Especially means rejecting the notion of possessing things and people.  

Seventh, and final observation:  Experiencing intimacy is challenging and raises questions:

  • How do I experience intimacy in a culture that so strongly encourages possessing, possessing things and person?
  • How do I experience intimacy in a world that seems to threaten my safety?
  • How do I reconcile my inheritance from my ancestors that seems so aversive to intimacy?
  • What are the roles of boundaries?   Do they help or hinder intimacy?
  • How do I become intimate with something repulsive that I don’t want to be close to or part of, such as racism, ageism, homophobia, misogyny?   
  • The list could be long, and I am sure you can add to the list of questions.   

That is part of what I invite you to share:   what is puzzling about intimacy.   What works?   How is it part or not part of your practice?