I am quite uncertain. I have begun to wonder if my deepening is something I have to do alone. By myself. I keep hoping to bring one or more companions along with me as I explore what it means to plunge. I’m beginning to wonder if that will happen.
Is deep intimacy such a solitary experience that no one can join me there? Are there any companions who can follow along with me, or am I simply on my own?
Once again, the image comes to mind of Harry Potter walking along through the forest to meet Voldemort and his expected death. It is a lonely walk. Though his supporters are nearby, it is his walk alone. The movie does a great job of portraying this.
I am beginning to feel that I also walk alone, just like Harry. It is a walk that I know is moving slowly into a deep well, into the Gap, into a great emptiness. I don’t know what it will be like, how it will feel. While I’m not there yet, I can sense where I am headed. It would be nice to have companions, but I may not have the closeness of companions who are on a similar path.