Small

I’ve been lost and floundering in the big picture. I’ve been unable to bring into focus any notion of how the inequities of racism are ever going to be dealt with. I cannot see a world path that has white people treating people of color as equal humans. So today I am paying attention to the small picture, and that is enough for now.

Today I will be present wherever I happen to be. I will really notice the people that pass along the sidewalk along my home. I expect to be very aware when kids come into my back yard to see the fish. I will listen attentively when people stop to talk with me. I will be very involved with my small world.

I began by time spent on my pillow, focused on where I was and what I was doing. My space was small but it had an immense feeling of spaciousness. I walked through my garden and the fresh green world allowed me to enter. My focus never went beyond the curb but lingered on this small area of my garden.

I think that before I can absorb the larger picture in a meaningful way, I need to ground myself right where I am. I will spend time in my small world. I will be sitting, walking, chatting, observing, listening.