Above all else, it is important for me to feel connected to all things. It is important for me to experience the connection that exists between everything that exists.
This is especially true for humans, who are the most potentially aware entities I know of. Humans are the most forward expression of consciousness I am aware of. We have the greatest potential to experience connection, and yet we resist. I, unlike all other non-human entities, can say no to connection.
I am encouraged to say no. I have lived in a world wickedly shaped by dualism. Men and women are separated, counties thrive on their pretense of nationalism, races are kept from being connected. All around me, there is the attempt to confine the deep feeling of eros that drives me to be connected. With all my being, I yearn to be connected to the earth, but I am taught so many ways of keeping myself not-connected. Eros is thwarted.
Sexuality has become a place that we can hide out, pretend to be a separate self. We have so many social norms and conventions that frustrate our nature of being sexual beings. I have lived all my life in a world of duality where the choice is either restriction or excess. There is a middle road of developing deep awareness but it is not a way we are taught or encouraged to follow.
I would like to be free of the personal conditioning that has kept me from being connected. I think that escape from dualism, the middle path, is a place of healing and release from the trauma of separateness.
In this culture, there is much resistance to being connected. The middle path is not a road often followed. Still, I choose it.