Chance

It is becoming somewhat irrelevant for me to think of things happening by chance. Having good luck has little or no meaning for me. Once an experience has happened, it is meaningless to consider any aspect of chance. It already is, it has happened. It is part of my life, there is no reconsideration, there is no turning back. I try to remember to simply settle in and absorb the experience as best I can.

I sometimes think of future events as unpredictable, a matter of probably. But this is more of a mind game and has little to do with reality, with what is happening right now. As unpredictable as they might seem, there really are no chance encounters, no chance happenings, no chance experiences. There is not, at any moment, any improbable or unpredictable event. It is simply happening.

For me, it is best to disregard any element of chance and simply seize the moment. Be open to it. It will never happen again in my experience. There is no “what if” things were different. There is no reason to look for another chance, another opportunity. This is the moment, the encounter, the experience. It is best for me to enter into it without hesitation or question. It is everything I have.

This is as good as this moment gets, and I had best not hold back or resist it. Because this experience exists, there is no doubt that it was meant to be. I want to be open to this very moment, this experience, this encounter. This is not a time to be casual about what is happening. This is not a time to be waiting for something better to happen, for someone better to come along, for the world to get more indulgent of me.

Urging me to “seize the day” is painting with too wide a brush, it is too wide a mandate, too wide a way of living. I want to seize every moment, to fully experience what it is like to be alive.

I want to walk around as though this is the most delightful step I could ever make right now. I want to meet people as though this is this is the most engaging encounter I could have. I want to savor every event with my full attention and pleasure. After all, it is the only event. It is all I have, it is my only opportunity. I don’t get another chance.