To some, I may have the appearance of a normal, very typical human being who has been around for quite a few years. But I am aware that I am living an absolute life in an historical world. I know and feel it. I have begun to be in touch with the absolute, formless aspect of myself, even while I function daily as someone with real flesh and blood.
I am discovering that it is not enough to have intellectual knowledge or awareness of this absolute aspect of reality. I have had to get a feeling for what it is like. I am aware that I have only a tiny experience of this alien aspect of myself. And it grows day by day.
Some days I even feel like an alien in a foreign land.