Want

Wanting things to be different causes me the most turmoil.    I just chased two rabbits out of my yard because I don’t want them to be there.     I’m not sure if I caused them as much turmoil as I felt.    I hope I did.     I hope they will want to be some place else  and the turmoil will cause them to move out of my yard.

The things I want are exemplary of the many feelings of dis-satisfaction I experience.     I want things to be different than they are, I am dis-satisfied with what is.     I want the snow to melt and plants to start coming out of the ground.   I want my injured leg to be stronger.

I think I notice more how the dis-satisfaction creeps into my life.   I am more aware of the powerful influence it has on my contentment.   As much as I want the rabbits to be gone from my garden, I am not as disturbed by their presence as I once might have been.    I am simply and reflectively looking at my options and deciding what to do.   I may want the rabbits to be gone, and I also plan that they no longer will  hang out in my yard.