I’m sitting in front of my computer and I just looked a little to my right and out the window. A man was walking down the sidewalk across the street, perhaps more than a hundred feet away. I glanced at him, and there was an instant experience of connection that went through my whole body.
I know that when I sat down by my computer, I was beginning to think how I am connected to everything and everyone. I know that concept formed my experience. But it happened without any effort, just an open pause.
This is starting to happen a lot. I find that I experience falling “in love” many times a day, depending where my day takes me. It is the same pause with an open attention and intention.
I know there is the concept of everything being in the One, but it is a whole different thing when I start to experience it. Something inside just seems to reach out and I feel the connection. Truly, it is a little unsettling and destabilizing.
In my head, I’ve started to form this concept how everything is connected, everything is part of the One. Words and theories of physicists and philosophers have nudged me into this concept, and I admit that I am somewhat open to the idea. It is a little disturbing to my world when I start experiencing it.
In my “rational” mind I think that the connection is there, but it is my experiencing it that is the big game-changer. The reality has perhaps always been there, but it is my experience that has changed. I have changed in how I experience what is there. I meet people, I know the connection is there, maybe we are one. Now I am beginning to feel, to actually experience that connection.
How we each experience the connection is very unique and individual, but the connection might be there even when I am not paying attention. How we react or decide to respond to the experience is also an individual choice. That too changes often during my day.
Some people want to control or dominate the connection. Some want to use it as a helping moment, a teaching moment, or a learning moment. Some use the moment to withdraw, others to throw themselves in to one another’s arms.
I like most of the connections, but I also resist and withdraw from those who offer me an experience of being controlled or dominated, who try to make the connection something it is not.
I try to remember that, in spite of all the messages I get from my culture, that we are not separate. I’m still considering the One. But I do think we all connected, and I choose to experience that as much as I can, as often as I can, as deep as I can.