The energy I feel in my body almost always comes from a sense of unity. Foremost, the energy is associated with an awareness of my body and ‘where’ it is, where I perceive my body to be. An electric response in me is always part of whatever awareness I am experiencing. The awareness can be from a simple sensory awareness to deep insightful presence.
This sense of unity can arise from the flowers I pass as I walk through my garden. It can be in the light touch of my hand on the bathroom counter. It often is in the touch of someone’s hand or shoulder. It is what arises in a deep, lingering hug.
The natural energy wants, is anxious to flow. When it does flow, I experience a flood of joy.
I have heard that Freud had a notion that sexual energy was the basic energy. I think that this can be true, except that “sexual energy” is usually too narrowly defined. Like the debate over whether something is ‘a particle or a wave,’ it depends on what you are looking for.
Whether the experience of unity and the flow of energy is ‘sexual’ or not depends, I think, on the angle from which it is viewed. The reference is in the mind of the individual, but the energy is the same, the sense of unity is the same. To consider the unity and flow of energy as either sexual or not sexual probably obscures the vastness of the reality.
Sexual images are symbols, reflections of the unity I seek with all people, all things. The symbols can become a distraction, and an invitation to grasping or aversion. I prefer to see the basic, intense and core energy as reaching for unity with all that is. The energy creates a force that wants to join all things, all people, the visible and the unseen. It wants unity, it wants to flow.
The natural affinity I feel for all beings and inanimate things is like gravity between two natural objects, the moon and earth, the sun and planets, an apple and the ground. I see it as an underlying attractive force that draws us together. It is the natural unity that already exists, and it can be intensified by my expanding consciousness, by my greater awareness. Then the energy can flow and I experience it.
I am grateful that I am drawn to unity and that I can be aware of the attraction that I often feel. I am grateful that I am learning to deepen awareness and experience the joyful flow of energy.