Distrust

For so long, my mind has been guided by an attitude of caution and distrust.   This is especially true of how I have seen people.   I have found it easier and not threatening to be curious about other features of the world.   The trees, the mountains, the birds have all been fascinating and I have been much more able to be aware of them with an open mind.   It has been a joy to see them without caution.

People have been another matter.   I’ve been curious about them, but they have been more of a challenge.   People have been a difficult study, and it has taken a special effort to become aware of them and what they are up to.   I’ve not been able to just be aware of them without analyzing them, figuring them out.

Much of this has changed.    I am still wary, cautious and distrustful with some people.   I suppose that is all part of my discriminating mind that I allow some latitude.    But most of the time I have an open mind with people.   I am much more relaxed and more aware.

I speak of this as having an open heart, and what I imply is that my mind is open to be aware of them as they actually are.   I find people much more interesting, I am more curious, and I smile a lot more.